Its really difficult!!!

Its really difficult to understand girls, i say complex... whosoever said that, its quite true.
Not to generalize it but I think atleast I cant... :(

I am pretty confused... any tips friends!

P.S. Currently playing Ibn-E-Batuta from Ishqiya.

Dream & Reality

Today Morning I woke up with a dream... A dream that am married and its early morning, my wife is sleeping and I am making a cuppa tea for her and she is very happy when she wakes up. I wasnt scared with making tea for her or because she is happy, but for the sheer dream! :D

I guess this is too much of working. I was working till 2am in morning and then woke up at 6.45 and 1st thing... no prizes for guessing, checking office mails! :P

To surprise myself, my today morning ginger-black pepper tea is without sugar, cutting calories! :P

Then read the news that only Maharashtra domicile would be driving taxi in Mumbai... Why?
If this is the case then I would never be working here in US, neither am a citizen, nor a domicile. I have never understood the fact that why do we try to define boundaries to the world? Just because we live in certain area, do we own it? It is totally politically motivated, to get more votes from the poor people of Maharashtra. Now the black rates for getting a domicile would go up, all the things would still remain the same!

Someone rightly said... As we are growing, our hearts are shrinking.

Lets pray for the people of Haiti those who have died, lost their homes or dear ones in the massive quake earlier this year. My heart also goes for the poor people who are suffering in Hyderabad because of demand for a new state, or in Pakistan who are dying because of bomb blasts or in Iraq. Too much of pain is there in this world. I try my best to bring the smile back on their faces. Request you too to donate for poor people of Haiti if possible. Lets do what we can... and atleast not say but make this world a better place to live. Amen!


P.S. The tea doesnt taste as bad as i thought it would be! :D

Am I Back? :D

Well Frankly, When I wrote the last post I wasnt sure if any of you gonna read it, but some of you did. So thanks to Ria, Lena, Ella and Suruchi for visiting. I am still in midst of fighting with myself to do this. I may have checked your blogs but may have not left any comments, so forgive me for that. I am soon gonna be a reader too again!

Lately I did a lot of soul searching, a lot of looking into where I am going, what I am doing, and why I am doing... and frankly didnt like the answers a lot! :D
I pursue something which cant be aimed. Something which has an obvious NO for an answer and yet... i do!!!

but then may be am dumb! :P

Just will post an old one of my sher...
रूह की गहराई मे तुम झांक कर मे देखो,
किसी कोने मे क्या दर्द दबा रखा है,
लफ्जों मे क्या बयां करे जालिम,
हमने तो हर ज़ख्म हरा रखा है

Cheers!!

FATE

I love you... those were his last words!!!

They were getting married on 17th...
He went to buy her the Solitaire


She still thinks he is coming... in a mental asylum.

Guess this is what is called FATE!!!

P.S. This is after long i putting up something. I missed being here, but whenever i come back i dont know what to write. Its not that I dont have anything to write, but there are so many thoughts...

Missing ...

Ok... let me begin by saying that I dont like the fact that most of my friends on blogsville are leaving it or hibernating. Though the fact is that I dont update here regularly... but months... no ways!! I am not that lazy!! :D

but on a serious note... guys I love you and I miss ya around... guys like CD, Sneha, Pri, Kashmira, Keshi and Veens... and many more ... some are back and some are yet not!! :) Miss you around guys!! :)

I read many posts on blogs ville today and one thing i found was common... most of them talk about past... somehow it made me re-look into mine!! :D

This year has been good for me... I am holidaying and enjoying at the same time... Went to Delhi in Feb, Goa in Mar, Jaipur in Apr and then again to Rajasthan and Kashmir in July (not naming some of Mumbai trips meanwhile :D)... though at the same time i missed meeting a beloved friend and I dont know if I would ever get a chance to meet her again... (she lives in other part of the world)!!! I am sorry dear friend!! :)

Also, at the work end, successful years with some awards (not many rewards though!! ;))... still after all this my past doesnt let go!! :P

I cant stop remembering those school days when we used to fight for lunch boxes and who will eat what... A 2 rupee note was big enough to buy happiness! believe me... its true!! :)
A ride on the bicycle... in the cool breeze to a friends place was like... wow!! :)
Playing in the mud... making paper boats and making them swim in the water when it rained!!
Flying kites (i still love it), painting people when it was the festival of colors (HOLI)...

Those were the days...

Grew older... fell in love and did some non sense things...

like calling her endlessly... just to listen to her voice
messaged her a lot... just to let her know how much i love her
gifted her whatever she wished for...

me was mad!! :P

and then... MBA... those were the best days man... on the campus how u really start loving people and how they became important part of your life... Friends for lifetime... just to tell u guys... and dont wonder... and touchwood... we have a group of 7 friends (including me) and we almost share 100-287 (was the highest) mails per day.. irrespective of our busy schedule... so we know whats wrong or right with us and what we are doing... touchwood but even after 2 years of leaving college, even after their marriages, promotions, work, and whatever... we still share ourselves... we fight and we make up... and we make sure that we are around!! :)

and then came work... which made me let go my love... or my love let me go!! :P

Life has changed... a lot, i miss old days... not like i could have done something else.. but i miss being a kid, driving that bicycle around like crazy... begging mom for 2 extra bucks which cud have changed the day...
I have changed, only wear brands... dont know what brands were then... every new cloth was a bliss... an ice cream was something special... and so was a chocolate!!!

I feel we have become victim of this world (atleast me) which is changing so fast that i am not feeling like keeping abreast with the change... I miss being the same person who thought 100 times before spending a buck and when spent was happy like hell!!!
I miss being like the same person for whom happiness wasnt slave of money or success for that matter... but it was in small things... like when dad come home and bring something from the market...
I miss to be with them.. my parents... people love to leave family and yet i hate it when I have the pleasure for past 4 years!!

I miss... a lot many things... a lot many... and yet I LIVE!!! :)

Some of my recent hindi writing...

रूह की गहराई मे तुम झांक कर मे देखो, किसी कोने मे क्या दर्द दबा रखा है, लफ्जों मे क्या बयां करे जालिम, हमने तो हर ज़ख्म हरा रखा है...
वो पूछते है नाम मुझसे मेरे इश्क का और पूछते है हमसे इजहारे इश्क भी हाल क्या बताये अपने दर्देदिल का दो ओस की वो बूंदे बेहाल कर गयी चांदनी रात मे चुपके से आकर हमसे हमारा दिल लूट ले गयी कर दिया बदनाम हमको हमने लूटा है वो हमसे हमारी नींद चैन ले गयी कुछ न बचा वो बस एक नाम रह गया और मश्क़ मे ओस की वो दो बूँदें रह गयी और मश्क़ मे ओस की वो दो बूँदें रह गयी...

Why Love?

Why do we love?
Isn't it a difficult one to answer... lol!!

May be we love coz we need love, or may be love coz we have a heart, or may be love coz we like someone, or may be love coz we feel we are compatible, or may be we love coz we want someone to love us...

Reasons may be many, but one thing i can say is that we all want to be loved... or should i say most, coz some may take offence!! :D

Some of us love irrespective of what they get in return... or shall they expect returns? yes i guess everyone does, saying that we dont want to be loved back is ideal... i think even god wants to be loved!! ;)

I dream too much... and moreover i dream too much about love. I just want to settle down on a lakeside in a small house may be with my love... where i can just admire her beauty in a perfect natural setting!! :D
ya ya.. i dream too much!! :P

I still miss those miss calls on my cell, some msgs which change the whole day or may be someone smiling on the phone and saying few words to u which make ur day...

Sometimes i feel even i want to be loved, is that wrong :P ... read a post today on some blog which made me realize that what I am missing... and today after ages i remembered my Ex... may be those were good days... atleast i were loved!! :D

P.S. Dont comment if you cant say something very very good!! :P

My Dear Life...

Dear Life,

I know you told me how much you wanna tell people all that you dont like in them, or what they do which is not liked by you...
I know how much you care about them so that you dont leave them, as well as you have the fear of them losing you...
And for the sheer love, you stick with them, not telling them what you dont like, or what you would like to change in them!!!

I know I have done things which are not liked by you. I know I have hurt you but you stuck with me during thick and thin!! I know saying these things wont change anything, but my dear life, I love you too... I am trying to change, change for the sheer fact that I wanna live with my life and I believe one day will come when you will also like me the way i do you!!!

God is kind and cruel in its own ways... It gives the best of life to those who may not care about it, or may not want it, and even life loves them, but those who think that life is of utmost importance to them, god deprives them getting the best of life!!

I know i have you, in some way or other, may be you dont want the way I do, yet you want to stick with me... you care about me and I know god has been kind enough to me for atleast having you for so long!!

I love you my dear life, and i wanna live with you forever!! Even if the eternity passed by, I want people to rememeber that me lived a life. Me lived a life, where not only my life made me happy, but I made my life much more happier...

You say, that life doesnt stick, If one goes, there come another, If this would have been so easier then no one would have cared enough for life. I will stick with you atleast till the time god asks me to give up, and thats where the death comes!!

I value you, not because you have a form, but for the fact that what you are, how much happiness you spread around, how much smiles you bring to the faces of people around and how much of what you are... LIFE!!

You may be golden, brown, black or pink, but you are a sunshine to me, the inspiration to live and to do things!! For me you have all the colors which makes me see a rainbow every now and then..

May be i fight with you by driving rash when things dont go alright, but then in the end i know and you know how much we care for each other!! In the end I know that atleast that little bit you love me is there...

My dear life, I never want you to give up on me, I would die if you will... I can spend my life in summer with the heat beating when you are around or in winters when the ice freezes me and you may keep me warm...

If I love anything more than myself, its you my life... I value you, respect you and I live because of you and for you!! :)

Love, hugs and kisses
yours and only yours...
A

P.S. Thought of writing something which may be called weird and which belongs to everyone of us...

Holding Back...

Can we love two people at the same time?

I always try to answer this, and the answer i find is yes we can... may be we cant commit to two, but we sure can love too, thats what i think at least and i may be completely wrong!!

What is Love? Its a feeling, a feeling which comes to us automatically, we dont force ourselves to feel that way, so how can we stop doing it when we love one???
Or is there any chemical reaction which i havent heard about which says that if u love one, you cant love one more... May be I am not talking about love as a child, friend, father, mother or such things, but am talking about the romantic love... yea.. Romance!!!

But Is love about romance all the time? Cant you love and yet you dont want to romance? May be possible, the only thing is that you have to accept it for yourself. But we cant blame anyone. I am not saying that he/she shall do it. I am not saying that principally one should accept it... Its about individual, some may accept it some will not!!!

When we say love is pure, why do we say that people who may love two people will make it impure? Does love actually use mind? Or are the feelings controlled from mind... May be in this world where we control everything using our mind, but is Love the same then?

I may sound out of my mind to many, but yet I am talking about a practical scenario where a person may love someone who is already loving someone else. But can this person love both?
Would you call it two timing? Am not talking about changing commitment, but even if he/she doesnt express it then also those feelings are there? Or is expression a crime?

I dont know may be love is something which in itself is not answerable, and one sided is the worst love which can happen coz then u r pitied at times. May be we should love only when we know that this would be answered with yes. :P
May be its like a interview you only appear if you are sure you will be selected.

Love is a mystery truly which has only entangled me. Love is something which I have never been able to understood. When to love, why to love and whom to love... If you have these answers then share ;)
But i think only then love would be impure, coz then u wud control it... ;)

And those who love, dream and those who dream love... There is no safer side in life, there is only a side you take thinking safe but you dont know what will happen eventually.

On a brighter note, I always want to remain a child, looking for answers... not giving those!!
May be i always want to be a child coz then I dont have to think what will happen eventually, may be i will just live a life and leave rest on time... but even when a child demands for chocolate, he cries thinking that he will get it!! :D

And I dont wanna give up on my dreams... may be i say giving up is easy, but comparing to sticking to ur dreams... coz those who dream believe in it!!

And may be those who give up their dreams, look at me... thinking that this ass can dream then we may too! :P

Live life, question wisdom.. and remain a child... may be u will still smile at the end of the day!!

And as they say... You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back!!!

The trip to GOA... Part I

Hey all... m here, back from Goa yesterday... and it was an amazing trip!! Went there with one of my friends as he came to Mumbai and i induced him to come to Pune just on the condition that we will visit Goa!! ;)

We started with a train journey on Friday and initially it looked like its gonna be damn boring. The compartment was filled with some boring people but I somehow asked them to swap seats and we moved to a different one. We were accompanied there by 2 girls and a group of some other people who were going there to visit a Church.

The best part was that we made everyone sing one song! :P though some were pathetic, but we actually made the girl sing too much!! :P
it was damn funny... :D

The real fun started in the morning when we reached Vasco De Gama at 7am in the morning. My friend works there in Navy as an Asst Commander (equivalent to Major in Army). There is a naval base there in Vasco and he took us there to his quarter (house). The best part was that we saw a fighter taking off from some 50 mtrs, and another commercial flight landed in front of us, we were just 50 mtrs away from all the excitement.
The best part was to watch the fighter plane taking off at an unimaginable speed. I wanted to click but we weren't allowed to do so. Then we crossed the runway and i did it for the first time in my life using a personal vehicle.

The best feeling was like how we watch in movies, people walking saluting him and calling him "Saheb", it may sound common but to experience it is altogether different.
The naval base is situated just next to the sea shore and Navy even has a private beach there. The view was also available from his quarter and we sipped the tea watching the sea... i mean the sun, sand and the beach! ;)

Its not like i havent seen a beach before but this experience was certainly different from all of this. I guess I should thank Anvita for that. She almost pushed me to South Goa and that where we landed next. We took a Cruiser bike from Vasco, drove some 70 kms and reached to a beach called Palolem. As this is an off season time, there were not many people around. We were getting a shack for some cheap money but we choose a shack right in front of the beach which costed us a moolah in this season.

Palolem is a great beach I must say. Its one of the cleanliest beaches in India and the natural beauty is all around. It has clean water and one can really enjoy the day there.

More to come in next post...

After a long lull

Firstly, Sorry for not being active for so long now. I was damn busy first and then was at home at Diwali and then again in Nov for 10 days for marriages of two of my best friends (rather 3 ;) )!!!

No to update you guys, life is a lot happening these days. There is loads of work and so I dont get the time to be active on bloggersville that much. The past few days were quite exciting as i was traveling across Rajasthan and Delhi. I attended a friends marriage at Ajmer and the Shaadi ka Mandap(set) was amazing. There was a natural waterfall in the background. I just loved the place.


From there we went to Pushkar, the place where the only temple of Brahma is located and the place which is known as "the most sacred place" for Hindus.
The trip was amazing and the number of foreigners was more than anything else in the world.



I spent 4 days in my home town Jaipur then, and believe me, it was amazing and I had loads of fun. Luckily Mom's B'day was on 26th November (same day a very dear blog friend had her b'day... Anvita, wish u once more!!). I celebrated mom's b'day and everyone was happy. All my near and dear ones were present and they thought it was more of a party for my surprise engagement, which supposedly was not the case!! :P
The birthday took a tool on my pocket, as i gifted a new cell, a birthday cake and the whole party was sponsored by me!!! :D

Then went to Delhi for Sudipt-Swati's Marriage, and spent three days there. The marriage was fun. I have already updated you guys about their engagement which took place in May. The sangeet was on Friday and it was fun... we danced and danced and danced!! :D
I mean we literally danced too much.. it was so much fun!!!


Then was the day of marriage where again we had fun... more friends from my MBA school joined in and we had amazing time. Ustad Amjad Ali Khan came, but i was waiting for Viru (Sehwag) and he didn't come.

Came back to Pune on Monday(1-Dec) and then there was bomb hoax in the office and we all had to leave the building early. I was anyways still working from home! :P

In the midst of all this, I kept watching the bad news about Mumbai & Taj... I just hope things will be better soon. I salute to all the martyrs and pray that all those who suffered and died, may they all rest in peace.

I am back and will update you more soon...

About Me

It has been long since i have posted something, hell busy thinking what can I!!
But here i come again... with a series of questions which i picked up from Lena's blog.

One humble request, if you want to say something bad, Plzz say it!!! :)

Here are the questions:

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. Something I have and YOU want?
4. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
5. Describe me in one word.
6. What was your first impression of me?
7. Do you still think that way about me now?
8. What reminds you of me?
9. If you could give me anything what would it be?
10. How well do you know me?
11. How do you see me in the future?
12. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't
13. Are you going to post this in your blog and see what I say about you?

20 ka Tag!!

I have been Tagged by 3 people for this, Pavi & CG and Chakoli.
So here it goes...

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Interesting... sounds like someone knows abt my past!! :D
Well, the first reaction was do i deserve this? and then was I still love you, and now is... ok, happens, i wasnt the first!!! :)

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
well, it can be that this world is free of violence!!

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
huh!!! Well i dont like kicking butts just for sake of it.

4. Why do you blog?
Someone asked me this just 3 days back... i blog coz it makes me feel good, entertaining, knowing new people, letting my emotions go and there are many more...

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
How do i know i will fall in love with whom, and eventually the question will come to will she love me back...
I dont know whether that can happen coz i have seen my crushes too becoming my best friends and then i dont think abt them like this.... however as i said, i dont know whether i can fall in love intentionally with sm1!!!

6. Which is more blessed: loving someone or being loved by someone?
I dont think neither is a blessing, but ya a combo of this can be one!!!

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?
I dont know... I didnt know i will fall in love and now i dont know when i will fall out!!!

8. If the person you secretly like is attached, what will you do?
Well, i know it for myself and thats enugh... and also i wud do anything for that person to make her appy!!! Even if it comes to making fun of myself or anything else...


9. If you could root for one social cause, what would it be?
Relevant Education of human kind

10. What takes you down the fastest?
When i miss someone or been cheated or betrayed by someone i trust!!!!
Or even when people react silly out of nothing!!!

11. What resurrects you the fastest?
I havent figure it out yet, but yeah may be a call from someone i love!


12. What’s your fear?
Losing the people i love...

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Pavi & CG : I dont have words... but i respect them both!!
Chakoli: She is genuinely sweet.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
None... haha

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
Check the time and then Go to the door to collect the newspaper and milk... haha!! :D

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously who will you pick?
I dont think i will have the power to pick anyone then, but may be i wud pick the one who loves me...

17. Would you give all in a relationship?
I will!

18. Would you forgive and forget someone no matter how horrible a thing he has done?
Well, depends... mostly i do, but few things i havent forgot in my life yet but forgiveness yes... i do!!

19. Do you prefer being single or in a relationship?
I would love to be in a relationship!

20. Tag 6 people.
Difficult to find... :P
I leave it to ppl who want to do this tag if they find this interesting enugh!! :)

Cheers!!

A Tribute~~~

A small tribute to a tall man.... Gandhi (its his anniversary today)!!!

Hindi

English

कैसा वो समय था इंसान मर रहा था खून की थी बारिश हर कतरा डर रहा था खड़ा रहा अटल वो लेकर के एक लाठी डिगा न सकी उसको तो फिर गोलियों की आंधी सच्चाई और अहिंसा यही था उसका नारा एक धोती मे जिसने हम सबका जीवन सँवारा गाँधी था या महात्मा ये उसको ना पता था दिल मे तो उसके खाली देशभक्ति ही भरा था सोचा था उसने भारत एक देश ऐसा होगा इंसान ही रहेंगे ना भेद कोई होगा हिंदू हो या हो मुस्लिम वो प्यार ही करेंगे ईद के आने पर भी दीए भी जलेंगे क्या ऐसा था वो भारत जो उसने भी बुना था प्राणों की देके आहुति हर ईंट को चुना था गोली ना मर सकी जिसको... ना मार सके हिंदू मुस्लिम हर वक्त मर रहा है वो आपने ही आदर्शो के साथ रोता होगा वो भी आज देख कर ये नंगा नाच आदर्शो का तिरस्कार और इंसानियत का बलात्कार दो माला फिर चढ़ जायेगी समाधी भी पुत जायेगी गाँधी के नाम पर फिर एक भाषण भी दे दिया जाएगा मगर क्या याद रखोगे तुम उसके आदर्शो की धुन सच्चाई और अहिंसा ये है गाँधीगिरी के गुन ये है गाँधीगिरी के गुन....

how was the time humans were dying blood was raining every bit was scared he stand still then with his Stick he wasnt scared the with the storm of bullets Truth and Ahimsa those were his principles in one piece of cloth he changed the life of us all Gandi or Mahatma he didnt know it in his heart only patriotism was there he think of India will be a country where people will live without any differences hindu or muslim they will only love on the Eid too there will be Diyas(lighting) was this this India he wove with others sacrificing his life he put every piece together bullet couldnt kill him nor did the riots but he is dying every moment with his principles he must be crying looking at this ruined state principles being demolished and rape of humanity flowers will again be showered memorial will again be painted on the name of Gandhi one more speech will be given But are you going to remember the motto of his principals Truth and Ahimsa(non-voilence) are the features of Gadhigiri are the features of Gadhigiri...

And Happy Eid to everyone... time to celebrate!!! :)
Have fun... Cheers!!!!

Absofuckinglutely Awesome!!!!

I think we were overburdened and overboard/overbored with the love triangle that Bollywood had to offer. But I think now we can say, that we are a part of grown up and mature cinema!!!

I think i have seen one of the best directed/scripted/narrated movie of our time. People say Dil Chahta Hai was/is a cult... then i think the era has just begin, the road has just been laid down... A new Cult will follow- The Rock in Indian Cinema!!!

I was spellbound with the expectation i had when i went into the theatre to watch the "EXPERIENCE" i had... and believe me, you go there for watch a movie but this is simply experience!!!

In the afternoon a friend was telling me that this is a movie which will tell you that you should follow your passion, but then which movie dont!!! I think this is a movie which tells you, enjoy!!! 

Its a slow movie, offcourse, coz with the speed of the rock, the pace of the movie cant move... And i somehow think that if the movies' pace wud have been faster then it would have been different or i say... not that big a hit for me!!! 

Just was chatting to a friend, who is a director himself, studying in a World famous direction school in Sydney, and has directed one small movie which was nominated for one award, and i was telling him, that its the best he can watch in Indian Cinema!! 

Somehow i think Anjuli, was perfectly right when she said awesome(cube)... Thankya Anjuli!!! 

I think director Abhiskek Kapoor has made an awesome flick... and Farhan Akhtar wont regret it ever after Dil Chahta Hai... Hats off to you guys!!!

ROCK ON!!!!

Saza~~~ Punishment!!!

दिल के किसी कोने मे जगह खाली है
हमे बस उसमे तुम पनाह दे दो
कुछ न मांगेंगे उम्र भर तुमसे
खुदसे मिलने की बस ये सज़ा दे दो

English Translation

There is some space in the heart
give me the a place to stay there
Wont ask you for anything else but
give me the punishment to meet u once...

Not well and down with fever, still working in office!! :(
Catch up with you and your blogs pretty soon! :)

Happy Reading...

Love or No Love!!!

Today i decided to remain single for next 2 years which will turn me 30. No love, no relationships, no marriage!!!

Was having a discussion with a friend, and she said.. there is a time to everything Ankur... i said yes.. it hasn't come!!! :P

and just now one friend was sayin.. u bet!!! :P

Well, dont know... have read it a lot of places, commented on it.. but u do tell me... how does it feels to be single at 30?
Is it good, bad or kinda mix???
Implications u think???

Really dont have anything great to write so discussing my personal stuff here!!!
but really need u all, for me to look into my decision!!! :)

Cheers!!!

No Title!!!

A Small poem written by me recently...

ये जो एहसास है
वो बहुत खास है
दिल की हर धड़कन पर
अब तुम्हारा नाम है
आंखो में तुम
लबो पर तुम
ख्वाबो में तुम
साँसों में तुम
फिर भी नही जानते है हम
क्या यही प्यार है!!!

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English Translation

This feeling
is something special
on every heart beat
theres ur name
u r in sight
u r in talks
u r in dreams
u r in breath
but i dont know really
Whether this is Love!!!
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This is an old one written by me some time back...

इंसानियत ही है मजहब और है ईमान भी
इंसान भी है तू और है मुस्लमान भी
खु का रंग नही बदलता है मज्हबे पाक से
न ही बदलती है शिक्षा पंडित या इस्लाम से
कुराने पाक हो या गीता सिखाती है सब यही
इंसानियत बड़ी है मजहब और हर इंसान से
मुक्कमल होने की तो बस तासीर होनी चाहिए
इंसान बन गया तो फिर और क्या चाहिए

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English Translation

Humanity is religion and practice
Human you are so are you Muslim
The color of blood doesnt change with religion
neither the education with Pandit or Islam
Quaran or Geeta they preach this
Humanity is greater every religion and individual
U just need the flavor to be complete
If you become a human then wat else u need!!!

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None of these 2 poems here has anything to do with any person living or dead currently...
I dont know how much sense these 2 here will make to you, but then they make a lot of sense to me! :)

Also, Making a lot of mistakes these days while commenting, so forgive me if I dont comment on your blogs for sometime!
I think I am out of my mind these days!!! lolzzz


Have fun.. Cheers!!!

Have Ur Say!!!

It was a chat which took place between a friend (D here)of mine and me, and she wants to know how you all think about this!!!
So read this and I am waiting to hear all of you on this!!!

D: Life is what's coming....not what was.

12:32 PM me: heheh
yeh kahan se aya
:D

D: pehle bata sahi hai na

12:33 PM me: yes

12:34 PM D: hmm ek friend ne forwrad message bheja

me: yes... we all are futuristic
so its kinda true

12:35 PM D: past cannot b changed present and future can b changed

12:36 PM me: well... agree a lil
not completely
present is a repurcussion of past
future will be the same too
those who believe in destiny... future cant be changed for them
12:37 PM and its written!!! :)

D: absolutely correct now it depends on us how far we want these repurcussions should take us

me: it has taken us this far
and its not abt how far they take us
12:38 PM u know one scientific fact!
forgetting something is never been proved, its just that we dont tend to remember!!! :)

12:40 PM D: human psychology is difficult to understand we all ve our point of view but then we create most of the situations in our life
and life is not wht has happened it is about wht is and wht will

12:41 PM me: what has happened has to do a lot with what it is and what will
12:42 PM we all carry a shadow of our past with us
its how we develop ourselves, and learn things
may it be speakin some language, knowing our parents or understanding wat relations mean to us

12:43 PM D: Past is a gr8 teacher i agree but it is not life
u cannot stick it on ur face and move ahead

me: but it makes life
isnt

12:44 PM D: a part of life
NOT LIFE

me: nothing is life then
life is a set which consists of multiple subsets
12:45 PM its an equation which cant be formed witout past
and the outcome definitely depends on how the past was for us
:)

12:46 PM D: its an equation which cant be formed witout past...but it cannot b formed without present and future two and if u c the ratio is higher here.

me: no my dear

D: is my friend

me: that where the difference is
the equations leads to present
12:47 PM and then present takes the form of the past
and future of present

12:48 PM D: i agree so the better U make ur present and future. The better will be the past and the equation of life will b set right

me: yes... but whats important is the past
isnt
:)

D: nah imp is wht u make it

me: as u said u agree
u agreed to the fact that its how the past shapes the present
12:49 PM and on which will depends the future!!! :)

D: not at all
i said u creat ur present n future which will become ur past
past is the result

12:50 PM me: hahah
now thats the funniest i have heard
past is the result
:P
we are moving ahead

D: it is

me: not from old to child
:P

12:51 PM D: arent u mixingtwo things

me: nope
i m not

D: when u get born thts ur present

me: i m pretty sure
without past incidents it would have been possible???

12:52 PM D: n when u become two days old ur first day is ur past

me: not at all
my birth in itself depends on some past events
nothing is new
it all depends on past

12:53 PM D: /;0
:)
u ve convinced urself well

me: u cant win with me in arguments.. but i rest my case
and arguments
and i agree to u
:)

12:54 PM D: it was a discussion
u c
hey why dont u post something like this on ur blog
n lets c wht ppl have to say

me: okie
will try it out
:)

D: cool



So guys... have a say!!! :)

Love Me Again!!!

Disclaimer: After reading first few comments, i have to put this.
These are simple plain emotions, i m not begging for love to anyone.This was just a mood swing as the day made me a lil nostalgic, I am happy and happily single!!!


Not so happy morning, they all say I will be happy again, but they cant predict when!!!

Today is 17th June... and i cant stop remembering the past!!!

Happy Birthday Sweetie!!!
May u get wat u wish for!!!!
and u know i cant stop asking for u, ever!!! :)

Today i read a mix of posts, but they all were happy, still i find myself in the middle of emotions, when i read someones 'I' tag... i do cry for the crazy time which was spent together!!!

I cant forget nothing!!!

I think I need to be loved again, i need those emotions back in my life...badly!!!
I need someone who accepts me with what I am, no prejudices, no expectations... just be wat u r and i will be wat i m...
I miss the time which i spent with her, togetherness, when i used to look at her for hours, at times her making faces at me, showing me emotions, crazy ones...
I miss the time when i really was in love, red blue purple... every color was so true!!!
I miss the time when i used to tease her for eating something and then not eating something... When i forced her to eat when she felt like...
I miss her complaints that she is hungry while we were travelling and me fightin with her coz i asked her to eat something!!!

I remember the time when she used to force me out of some store because she said that i shouldnt buy for her coz i dont earn!!!!
and then how she looted me on my first salary...

I miss her waiting to eat that sizzling brownie and giving me those looks, and then her eating it with making faces at me!!!!

I miss talkin to her endlessly about our kids, or the only i dreamt of, a girl...
I remember how she actually didnt talk to me for 2 days coz i jokingly said i want my girl to be like Priyanka Chopra and she yelled!!!

I miss that miss call on my cell, I miss her sayin that dont keep the phone plzzz... i miss her sayin dont give me a call when I am in the class coz i cant concentrate then!!!

i miss looking into those eyes... i miss the touch, the warmth, the love and the affection... i miss the care...

I misss everything but above all i miss being loved!!!

Love me Again!!!

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This post was started by me in the evening but cudnt complete it!!!
So here i m :)